Someone asked me today how my day was, and I have realised that I know how long it has been since the last time anyone asked me a similar question. And this week I cleaned, with the help of someone, my backyard: the old decking has been taken off and the whole space has been cleared and cleaned.
I felt very scared, the past year, of going outside and relax in my backyard. There was something off. But these couple of days, we cleaned, listened to music, laughed, teased each other, and drank beers. I feel I have been cleaned myself and I have been reminded of a movie I watched some time ago which left me full of hope:
I discovered a sense of connection with some neighbours I didn't think I had. This made me feel safer and I am looking forward to enjoying many days of sun in my backyard, now.
These week's cards do look different and I love when KAIROS come up for me: it makes me reevaluate the whole idea of time and speed of manifestation. It is just a construct of this reality but
"The butterfly counts not months but moments,
and has time enough.”
That DESERT reversed made me think of shaking the sand off so that I am going to be able to face the road ahead, clearly. Focus on the water, Matilde. Focus on the water. And don't forget that in the desert, I have learned to survive, to hide, to rest, to mediate, to save.
From the Creator, I have moved now to the SUSTAINER: at peace with the process of life. Still, the fear is to cling on and not to let go. I remind myself to take a step at a time. And that whatever I am creating now, whatever I am making that is a change from whatever I made before, to whomever I was before, needs time. Time to make, time to change, time to adapt, time to heal.
And I have all the time in the Universe!
In the meantime, ad maiora!
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