How do I become what I want to become? Am I confident enough to say what I want to be? Eventually, one day, should I decide to go to Uni, would anyone of them take up the challenge to teach me?
Understanding who I am as an artist, deciphering my own Manifesto, writing up and living my own Agenda, letting it come up from within my own sense of congruency and integrity, is not as easy as I would have thought. Still, I gave it a go, bearing in mind that this is a work-in-progress. Always.
"It is not easy writing about nothing" (Patti Smith).
But I am not “nothing”: I believe I have valuable things to say.
I have never previously studied Art in a conventional and scholastic way, but I have done Technical Drawing for 4 years while studying carpentry and electrotechnology between 1981 and 1985. During my two years at UWC of the Atlantic, I was involved with drama and the local theatre company at the St Donat’s Arts Centre (production of Mabinogion and A Soldier’s Tale, just to mention two) and have applied my skill then, in setting up productions, assisting and following the Company on tour.
In 1996 I started writing consistently and since then I have published 6 books. In 2005 I finally bought myself a camera and during the following 3 years, I have then created 7 exhibitions which I have conceptualised as complete journeys and installations combining words and pictures.
In 2008 I moved to the UK and since then I have spent my time writing and working as a psychotherapist. I am interested in using Art as a mean to push the boundaries of spectators and visitors’ awareness and to explore the concept of Identity, Self and Boundaries, both emotional and as real as borders.
As much as I have always sketched, designed, planned and structured ideas and installations, I am fully aware that there are areas in which I am weak and need to explore in order to find my voice and my mark which I know are within me, albeit still raw and vulnerable.
Hence, I am interested in pursuing further studies which will provide me with a structured academic perspective and dedicated and intense skill training; where I will have my boundaries pushed and where I will be left in uncertain territories which will allow me to explore, experiment, and strengthen my core; where I hope to find a place where I will be able to integrate my experiences as a writer (with a deep interest in language as a mean of impossible real communication), as a therapist (with a personal passion in existentialism, unconscious, experiential therapy, and working with pain and the Shadow), and finally Artistic expression.